First step: Let go of the numbers. If you need to throw out your scale, do that. Stop measuring yourself and stop counting cals.
Tips to stop counting:
Ignore those nutrition labels. Take the food, and put the container back. It may take some will power, but it takes practice to get out of a habit so just keep at it.
Ensure you’re eating your 5 meals with 2-3 snacks in between. Keeping the same pattern can help ensure you’re not having extra snacking in between so you don’t over eat or under eat.
Any sort of thing you use to keep track, a note book, an app, posts on tumblr, get rid of them.
Instead of counting calories look at macros. It’s much more efficient and better for your health.
Make new foods that involve the combo of several other foods. This way you’ll have no way of knowing the caloric amount. This is how I stopped. After not knowing the amount in my meals, I figured I may as well stop counting all together and it’s helped my mental health immensely.
Stop weighing yourself! Weight tells very little in terms of how much is fat and how much is muscle.
"A person’s scale mass is a combination of muscle, fat, bone, the brain and neural tract, connective tissue, blood, lymph, intestinal gas, urine, and the air that we carry in our lungs.
Second step: research. Gaining knowledge is how we make ourselves stronger.
Read books, take advantage of the net, watch documentaries etc. Read up on what binging and starving really does to the body. Research about self love and meditation and the Earth. No doctor in the world could help me as much as I helped myself just by learning to love myself. I learned to love myself through falling in love with the world and myself in it.
Third step: take a break from the “healthy lifestyle.” Once you start feeling guilty over eating, your lifestyle has become the opposite from healthy. Take a break from working out and trying to eat healthy, and focus on your mind instead.
I’ve had to take breaks too and every time I do, I come back stronger then before.
Fourth step: Speak out. Tell a parent, a friend you trust, a teacher, a guidance councilor, a doctor, etc.
My full list of getting started on recovery, also may help to steer away from an ED (X)